Friday 16 December 2011

If You Feel Lucky

The alley was long and dark, cobblestones covered the ground, there was a light at the far end that burnt with a yellow hue.

A man walked in from the dark end, wearing a knee length jacket and Cuban Heel boots.

A young, athletic man stood under the yellow light at the far end of the alley. He wore jeans and a singlet. His arms bulged with muscles on either side of his well developed chest. His guy crew of four sat around him on empty four gallon drums.

The Cuban Heels clip clopped on the grey cobblestones, which looked like steel grey corn on the cob laid out flat under his feet.

The young athletic man smoked a cigarette, the smoke from which clouded up into the yellow light, like mist on a cold night.

Cuban Heels walked straight up to the young man under the yellow light, as he approached, the young man flicked his cigarette at Cuban Heel's feet. Cuban Heels looked down at the burning red ember at his feet. He looked up at the young man under the yellow light.

"You feel lucky, pal?" said Cuban Heels.

"Lucky enough," said the athletic young man.

"You feel lucky enough to get to me, before I get to you?"

“Lucky enough, sure.”

"Protect your manliness, as you know I'm coming for that first."

“Come for it. Give it your best shot.”

"Suck my cock!" said Cuban Heels.

"Nah, you got it all wrong, mate. It's you who'll be sucking my cock," said the athletic young man.

"So, you are feeling lucky."

Cuban Heels stepped forward and grabbed the young man by the face. The young man didn't try to pull away, he stood firmly defiant, chin out, still.

They gazed at each other, defiantly.

Cuban Heels slipped his hand around the back of the young man's neck. He pushed the young man downwards onto his knees. The young man didn't resist.

The athletic young man’s crew got to their feet, but the athletic young man held up his hand telling them to hold back.

“How lucky do you feel now?” said Cuban Heels.

“Still lucky…” murmured the athletic young man.

Cuban heels rubbed the athletic young man’s face up and down his crotch.

The athletic young man’s crew got obviously twitchy, but they didn’t act.

“How lucky…” Cuban Heels rubbed the athletic young man’s face up against the front of his jeans again. “Do… you… feel?”

“Take it out, and I will bite the fucking thing off,” said the athletic young man.

Cuban Heels tossed the athletic young man down onto the cobble stones, where he landed on his arse. “You’ve got some hutzpah, you know, kid,” said Cuban Heels. He held out his hand to help the athletic young man up, which the athletic young man took. Cuban Heels wrenched the athletic young man to his feet with a jerk of his arm. Suddenly they were face to face eyeballing each other. “I like that in a man,” said Cuban Heels.

They eyeballed each other for several, long minutes. Then they kissed passionately.

The athletic young man’s crew whooped and clapped loudly.


They pulled apart. “You’ve got a strange way of greeting people,” said Felix.

“What’s your name?” asked Cuban Heels.

Felix’s crew of athletic young men, now sitting back down on the drums, began to sit up and pay attention, all four of them. Ready for anything?

Felix held up his arm, and pushed out his chest, and moaned. “This is a strange way to say hello.”

Two of Felix’s crew had slipped their hands on to the handles of their guns in their jean’s waistbands.

Jose took Felix in his arms and whispered in his ear. “I’m going to do you well. If your boys weren’t here, I’d have you bent over one of those drums by now.”

“Oh yeah, man, but my guys are here,” said Felix.

“You’d take it like a girl?” said Jose.

“For as long as it takes my guys to blow your brains out,” said Felix. 

“Get rid of your boys and I will do you up against the wall right now,” said Jose. “Long and hard.”

Felix turned to his crew. “Ha ha, you’d like that, hey.” His boys mummed in agreement.

“I’m telling you…” said Jose. He spun Felix around. Felix resisted. Jose pushed him face first up against the alley wall. 


Tuesday 13 December 2011

Monday 12 December 2011

Sunday Night Out

I went out dancing last night. Popped a pill and went on the hunt for some basic beats.

I found what I wanted. I grooved into the night. It's what I needed, a good, mindless dance. I popped another pill, when the end of the night seemed further away than I'd like.

The lights were good. The music just fine.

I flirted with a cute Italian boy. Nice smile, kind of wanting, he was on something, to be sure. Beautiful eyes, big and brown. We danced and smiled. He was with a girlfriend. They shared each other's water.

I popped another pill, thinking about him. My eyes bled. My teeth clenched. My head floated to the roof and floated there on a wave of doof, doof, doof. Bobbing. Floating  I couldn't see. My teeth ground constantly. My sense of balance faltered from this plane to the next, but in a good way, a funny way, a way that made me laugh, made me feel ten feet tall.

Faces appeared and floated away. The Italian boy asked me something, but the ringing in my ears masked his words. He smiled. I got the sense I was supposed to answer. It seemed funny. That disconnection, half floating on another plane. My eyes bulged as I tried to focus. I laughed. I was smiling. I couldn't stop smiling.

He took my hand and we were rushing through the crowed. Everything changed. His hand felt good in mine, it was all I could feel. Was I collapsing and I just didn't realise? Why would he care? People swayed into view and then out. He was always just passed the next person, just out of sight, but his hand gripped mine tightly.

Cold. The light was suddenly florescent. There were tiles. Everyone was stopped. Milling. It was bright. Hot lights. I shielded my face. I wasn't collapsing, or falling, but my eyes had difficulty opening. Something was funny, deep inside me.

The Italian boy said thanks, to someone. I'm not sure who. Everything rushed if I opened my eyes. Blur.

I was being pushed backwards. It was darker, the brightness was gone. There was a wall behind me.

"I want to blow your mind, handsome man."

My belt was being undone. The buttons on my fly. My legs were suddenly cold.

He took my cock in his mouth. My, already hard, my head spun, dick was suddenly in his mouth. It was warm inside his mouth, as I knew it would be, if I had even thought about it. I was suddenly hot. Sweating. The air was thin. I couldn't breath, but it was okay.

He sucked. My head spun so hard, I thought I was going to puke. His mouth felt good. My last E gushed in my eyes until I thought the top of my head was going to explode onto the ceiling. And so did I explode, heat, hot, fuck, right into his mouth. My kegs were shaking. Suddenly the only thing I knew was his hair in my hands and the top of his head.

He sucked. He swallowed. He sucked until I jumped with every movement of his lips over the tip of my cock.

He stood up and wiped his face. "You look like you needed that. Come on, pull your pants up... so we can go back to the dance floor."

My legs were shaking so violently, I thought I was going to fall. He held me. His arms felt great around my shoulders and around my waist. He smelt of wog boy cologne.

I'd just done my belt up, my boxers were slimed, and it is suddenly light. Italian boy has me by the hand. Fluorescent. Harsh. "Do you want to wash your hands... honey," he said, as he squeezed my hand. Do you always call boys honey? I ran into two people on the way out, they looked at me disapprovingly. I must have looked really...

Sweating, rushing, dizzy, out of body, that's how I felt. Serviced. Done. I saw a couple of distorted faces rush at me and then rush away.

Dark. Cold. Crashing through doors.

Doof. Doof. Doof. Hot. Sweaty. Heat.

He smiled sweetly back at me and the crowd parted. His girl friend was next to him with the water. They both glanced back at me. He smiled.

The lights flashed. The groove came and got me. I needed to dance. My head was spinning.


Thursday 8 December 2011

All Day On The Internet

A computer, a bag of dope and a pot of coffee... who could be a happier boy? 

A little toast, with mashed banana on it halfway through the day. 

The sun shining in through the window, that always helps.